I’m finally back on track! A hearty thanks to you for praying for me and my family. I was deeply touched by such concern, One email friend said simply, “You are not alone.” That struck me straight in the heart. I didn’t realize that that was exactly how I felt, but God did.
My sense of being alone did not have to do with God, but in a way, I had been isolating myself from people. I don’t know about you, but when I do that, my mind can trick me into believing no one, except God and my hubby, really cares! Sometimes, to be honest, I’m not content with that! I hate when lies have their way with me!
But God is so faithful! How often He places someone right in my path to gently speak a word or two that clearly identifies an issue I may not have even known was an issue! Does that ever happen to you?
Those two weeks of on again, off again veritigo, nausea, and exhaustion, as horrible as it felt, did result in some new and marvelous insights and healing, particularly about my mom of all things! God knows just what we need.
I was grateful that one thing He has convinced me of over the years is to not doubt His presence, healing power, or attention. especially in the midst of debilitating discomfort and even, excruciating pain.
But I didn’t always have such assurance. For years I suffered from immensely painful migraines. I use to wonder where was God and why would He let me suffer. I felt abandoned and neglected. Doubting Him seemed to increase my pain and sorrow. Eventually I learned to simply say, “God is good, and He loves me.”
I will remember that day the rest of my life.
Another nasty migraine had come and taken me down again. On the third day of languishing in bed, a new thought came upon me. It was to call a friend who would stay with me and pray, no matter how long it took me to get healed.
I called Suzanne and without hesitation, she came right over. We laugh today about this, but she was so afraid to make me worse since she was not very confident of her ability to pray. And when she began to pray, guess what… I got worse!
I don’t know if that story encourages you or not, and surely I give no formula here. But I do know that there are places where we doubt God’s love for us, the degree of His love, or a specific way His love works.
The Lord has many names, but I needed the name Jehovah Rapha, the Lord Who heals! His “path of righteousness” is His leading us to think right about Him, our relationship to Him, and what He has and will do for us.
I am sure He wants to expand your heart, restore your soul, and lead you in YOUR path of all that is right (righteousness) about His love for you.
Thank you all again for your kind attention, support, and prayers. I am blessed by you.
